I feel terribly unmotivated and irritated with my life. even kind of over emotional at times. but the frustration does not subside. I know I need to do something to make things change but I don't know what or how. I want to yell, flail, but no energy. I've distanced myself from the core of myself thats making these waves. I don't want to live in my own mess, my own neurosis. maybe i've been listening to too much sad music or watching too many indie films. maybe i just need to fucking get over whatever it is and do something to steer myself out of this. but get over what? and do what?

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