I keep having dreams about my friend that lives in vancouver that I've never met in person. It's so weird to know someone so well but to never have seen them moving around in front of you. a couple years ago we talked a lot. we talked less and less and then he emailed me and told me he might be moving away to ireland with his girlfriend. then Id email him every few months and get no response so i figured he had left and changed his email adress. randomly he emailed me last year when I was in syracuse and we started talking again all the time. I guess he didnt move, they just got an apartment together and she was really controlling and didnt want us talking. hes with someone else now thats a lot nicer luckily and I talk to him about once a month now. someday we will meet...
this year has went by really fast I think I can't believe its going to be over already. I'm making my 2004 mixtape again, I messed up the first time. its strange to look back, a lot of 2003 blended into 2004 it seems like for some reason, like I lumped it all together in my head, like it still sort of feels like the winter of 2002 was last year along with the winter of 2003 and I have no idea why. the fall/winter of 2002 was like the worst time of my life. I was in oneida and miserable and good at hiding it from everyone or so i thought. hey, even that whole summer before I spent indoors, sleeping, and avoiding everything and everyone. ah yes things are so good now indeed.