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it's my moms birthday. shes one of those people that gesture means everything to. I could have given her a piece of cardboard with something written on it and she wouldnt be upset. theres a lot of qualities she has that I don't like, but I do like that shes not at all mean spirited or pushy. shes usually not judgemental, shes accepting, loving, forgiving, and on your side. she has her own unique way. sometimes shes too forgetfull and her not being so sharp can cause problems but she always means well. and its good to have had someone love me so genuinely my whole life. If i didnt have that as a kid i would have been completely lost now.
when people annoy you really bad i guess its good to think positive things about them now and then to balance it out.
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theres so much you learn in kidnergarten that most people forget completely. simple concepts, like if you don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all. I like little kids. their minds arent completely washed away and unabsorbant yet. I allowed myself to wheel my burger king toy around on the walls and and on surfaces and it made me realize that little kids know how to relax so much better than adults and do, and they do it often or as needed.
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jason is fixing my car for me again. I want to do something nice for him in return, but I don't know what. he is the nicest, and i like him lots. I hope we are together for a really long time... Ive never really gotten along with someone so well. he doesnt make me uneasy at all, in fact he makes me so unbelieveably calm and just happy in general.