for the first time I feel like I have so much to look forward to. this feeling came over me last night, and it was refreshing. life is so much more bearable when you have really great people in it. when I get in a bad mood its like i'm fighting with myself, with my body. it wants to shut down and be depressed and I tell it that it doesnt have any reason to do that but it doesn't care. Lately I've been winning that battle a little more often than usual. I just wish I was less irritable. I hate that about myself. its not so fun.

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